THE MASTER ON HIMSELF AND HIS EXPERIENCES
August 9, 1885
SRI RAMAKRISHNA was
sitting in his room at Dakshineswar. Rākhāl , M., Dwija and his father,
and other devotees were present. It was about four o'clock in the
After returning from
Vrindāvan Rākhāl had spent a few days at home. Now he was staying
with the Master. Lātu, Harish, and Ramlal were also staying at the
Beginning of Master's illness
Sri Ramakrishna was
not well. It was the beginning of the illness subsequently diagnosed as
the fatal cancer. But this did not disturb the serenity of his mind. Day
and night he had only one thought, and that was the spiritual welfare of
his disciples. He was guiding them toward the attainment of God. He
encouraged them constantly to cultivate knowledge and devotion and
warned them of the snares of "woman and gold". He was completely
indifferent to his own illness and devoted himself whole-heartedly to
the fulfilment of his earthly mission.
Dwija was about sixteen years old. After the death of his mother, his
father had married a second time. Dwija often accompanied M. to
Dakshineswar; but his father did not approve of it.
Dwija's father had
for a long time been speaking of visiting Sri Ramakrishna. Today he had
come to Dakshineswar. He was the manager of a business firm in Calcutta
and had passed his examination in law.
MASTER (to Dwija's
father): "Please don't mind your children's coming here.
Advice to the worldly-minded
"I ask people to
live in the world after the awakening of their spiritual consciousness.
After extracting gold through hard labour, a man may keep it under earth
or in a box or under water. The gold is not affected.
"I ask people to
live in the world in a spirit of detachment. If you break the jack-fruit
after rubbing oil on your hands, its sticky juice will not smear them.
"If the 'unripe'
mind dwells in the world, the mind gets soiled. One should first attain
knowledge and then live in the world.
"If you put milk in
water the milk is spoiled. But this will not happen if butter, churned
from the milk, is put in water."
"That is true, sir."
Instructing Dwija's father
MASTER (smiling): "I
know why you scold your children. You only threaten them. The
brahmachari said to the snake; 'you are a fool indeed! I forbade you to
bite but not to hiss. Your enemies would not have beaten you, if only
you had hissed at them.' Your scolding of the children is really a
hissing. (Dwija's father smiles.)
"A good son is a
indication of his father's spiritual nature. If good water comes out
when a reservoir is dug, it only indicates the virtue of the owner.
"A son is called
Atmaja, 'the self reborn'. There is no difference between you and your
son. In one way you yourself are reborn as your son. In one sense you
are a worldly person, working in a business office and enjoying worldly
life; in another sense you are a devotee of God, in the form of your
son. I heard that you were a very worldly person; but now I find it
isn't so. (Smiling) You know all this. I understand that you are very
circumspect. Perhaps that is why you are nodding your assent to what I
am saying. (Dwija's father smiles.)
"If your children
visit this place, they will be able to know what you really are. How
precious one's father is! If a person deceives his father and mother in
order to seek religion, he gets only worthless trash.
Man's several debts
"A man is born with
several debts: debts to his father, the devas, and the rishis. Besides,
there is his debt to his mother. He also has a debt to his wife; She
must be supported. If the wife is chaste, the husband must provide for
her after his death.
"I could not live at
Vrindāvan on account of my mother. When I remembered that my mother was
living in the temple garden here at Dakshineswar, I could not feel
peaceful at Vrindāvan.
"I ask people to live in the world and at the same time fix their minds on
God. I don't ask them to give up the world. I say, 'Fulfil your worldly
duties and also think of God.' "
DWIJA'S FATHER; "I
tell my children that they should attend to their studies. I don't
forbid them to come to you, but I don't want them to waste time in
frivolities with the youngsters."
MASTER (referring to
Dwija): "This boy must have been born with some good tendencies. Why are
the two other brothers different from him? Why is he alone spiritually
minded? Will you be able to compel him not to visit this place? Sooner
or later everyone unfolds his inborn tendencies."
"Yes, that is true."
Sri Ramakrishna came
down from the couch and sat on the floor beside Dwija's father. While
talking with him he touched him now and then.
It was nearly
evening. Sri Ramakrishna asked M. and the others to show Dwija's father
the temples. He said to them, "I should have accompanied him myself if I
were well." He asked someone to give sweets to the young men and said to
Dwija's father: "Let the children have a little refreshment. It is
customary." Dwija's father visited the temples and the images and took a
stroll in the garden.
engaged happily in conversation with Bhupen, Dwija, M., and others on
the southeast porch of his room. He playfully slapped Bhupen and M. on
the back. He said to Dwija with a laugh, "How I talked to your father!"
returned to Sri Ramakrishna's room after dusk. He intended to leave
shortly. He was feeling hot. Sri Ramakrishna fanned him himself. In a
few minutes the father took leave of the Master. Sri Ramakrishna stood
up to bid him farewell.
It was eight
o'clock. Sri Ramakrishna was talking to Mahimacharan. Rākhāl , M., and
one or two companions of Mahimacharan were in the room. Mahimacharan was
going to spend the night at the temple garden.
Mahima's estimate of the devotees
MASTER (to Mahima):
"Well, how do you find Kedār? Has he only seen milk, or has he drunk it
MAHIMA "Yes, he is
MAHIMA "Very good.
He is in a lofty state of mind."
MASTER: "Yes. Well,
what about Girish Ghosh?"
MAHIMA "He too has
developed nicely, but he belongs to another class."
MAHIMA "He is now in
the state I was in fifteen years ago."
MASTER: "The younger
Naren? How guileless he is!"
MAHIMA "Yes, quite
MASTER: "You are
right. (Reflecting a little) Let me see who else. It will be sufficient
for the youngsters who come here if they know only two things. If they
know these, they will not have to practise much discipline and
austerity. First, who I am, and second, who they are. Many of the
youngsters belong to the inner circle.
"Those belonging to
the inner circle will not attain liberation. I shall have to assume a
human body again, in a northwesterly direction.
"I feel peace of
mind when I see the youngsters. How can I feel joy at the sightof those
who have begotten children and are engaged in lawsuits and are involved
in 'woman and gold'? How could I live without seeing pure souled
some texts from the scriptures. He also described various mystic rites
of the Tantra.
MASTER: "Well, some
say that my soul, going into samādhi, lies about like a bird in the
Mahakasa, the Infinite Space.
Different kinds of samādhi
"Once a sādhu of
Hrishikesh came here. He said to me: 'There are five kinds of samādhi. I
find you have experienced them all. In these samādhis one feels the
sensation of the Spiritual Current to be like the movement of an ant, a
fish, a monkey, a bird, or a serpent.'
Spiritual Current rises through the spine, crawling like an ant.
samādhi the soul swims joyful in the ocean of divine ecstasy, like a
"Sometimes, when I
lie down on my side, I feel the Spiritual Current pushing me like a
monkey and playing with me joyfully. I remain still.
That Current, like a
monkey, suddenly with one jump reaches the Sahasrara. That is why you
see me jump up with a start.
"Sometimes, again, the Spiritual Current rises like a bird hopping from
one branch to another. The place where it rests feels like fire. It may
hop from Muladhara to Svadhisthana, from Svadhisthana to the heart, and
thus gradually to the head.
"Sometimes, again, the Spiritual Current moves up like a snake. Going in a
jigzag way, at last it reaches the head and I go into samādhi.
Awakening of Kundalini
"A man's spiritual
consciousness is not awakened unless his kundalini is aroused."The
kundalini dwells in the Muladhara. Then it is aroused, it passes along
the Sushumna nerve, goes through the centres of Svadhisthana, Manipura,
and so on, and at last reaches the head. This is called the movement of
Spiritual Current. It culminates in samādhi.
consciousness is not awakened by the mere reading of books. One should
also pray to God. The kundalini is aroused if the aspirant feels
restless for God. To talk of knowledge from mere study and heresay! What
will that accomplish?
"Just before my
attaning this state of mind, it had been revealed to me how the
kundalini is aroused, how the lotuses of the different centres blossom
forth, and how all this culminates in samādhi. This is a very secret
experience. I saw a boy twenty-two or twenty-three years old, exactly
resembling me, enter the Sushman nerve and commune with the lotuses
touching them with his tongue. He bagan with the centre at the anus and
passed through the centres at the sexual organ, naval, and so on. The
different lotuses of those centres-four-petalled, six-petalled,
ten-petalled, and so forth-had been drooping at his touch they stood
"When he reached the
heart-I distinctly remember it-and communed with the lotuses there,
touching it with his tongue, the twelve-petalled lotus, which was
hanging head down, stood erect and open its petals. Then he came to the
sixteen-petalled lotus in the throat and two petalled lotus in the
forehead. And last of all, the thousand-petalled lotus in the head
blossomed. Since then I have been in this state."
Sri Ramakrishna came
down to the floor and sat near Mahimacharan. M. and a few other devotees
were near him. Rākhāl also was in the room.
MASTER (to Mahima):
"For a long time I have wanted to tell you my spiritual experiences, but
I could not. I feel like telling you today.
Master's intimate vision of God
"You say that by
one can attain a state of mind like mine. But it is not so. There is
something special here [referring to himself]."
Rākhāl , M., and the
others became eager to hear what the Master was going to say.
MASTER: "God talked
to me. It was not merely His vision. Yes, He talked to me. Under the
banyan-tree I saw Him coming from the ganges. Then we laughed so much!
By way of playing with me He cracked my fingers. Then He talked. Yes, He
talked to me.
"For three days I
wept continuously. And He revealed to me what is in the Vedas, the
Puranas, the Tantras, and the other scriptures.
Master's vision of māyā
"One day He showed
me the māyā of Mahamaya. A small light inside a room began to grow, and
at last it enveloped the whole universe.'
revealed to me a huge reservoir of water covered with green scum. The
wind moved a little of the scum and immediately the water became
visible; but in the twinkling of an eye, scum from all sides came
dancing in and again covered the water. He revealed to me that the water
was like Satchidananda, and the scum like māyā. On account of māyā,
Satchidananda is not seen. Though now and then one may get a glimpse of
It, again māyā covers It.
Master saw devotees before their
"God reveals the
nature of the devotees to me before they arrive. I saw Chaitanya's party
singing and dancing near the Panchavati, between the banyan-tree and the
bakul-tree. I noticed Balarām there. If it weren't: for him, who would
there be to supply me with sugar candy and such things? (Pointing to M.)
And I saw him too.
"I had seen Keshab
before I actually met him-I had seen him and his party in my samādhi. In
front of me sat a roomful of men. Keshab looked like a peacock sitting
with its tail spread out. The tail meant his followers. I saw a red gem
on Keshab's head. That indicated his rajas. He said to his disciples,
'Please listen to what he [meaning the Master] is saying.' I said to the
Divine Mother: 'Mother, these people hold the views of "Englishmen". Why
should I talk to them?' Then the Mother explained to me that it would be
like this in the Kaliyuga.
"Keshab and his followers got from here [meaning himself] the names of
Hari and the Divine Mother: That is why the Divine Mother took Vijay
away from Keshab's party. But Vijay did not join the Adi Samaj.
himself) "There must be something special here. Long ago a young man
named Gopal Sen used to visit me. He who dwells in me placed His foot On
Gopal's chest. Gopal said in an ecstatic mood: 'you will have to wait
here a long time. I cannot live any more with worldly people.' He took
leave of me. Afterwards I heard that he was dead. Perhaps he was born as
"I have had many
amazing visions. I had a vision of the Indivisible Satchidananda. Inside
It I Saw two groups with a fence between them. On one side were Kedār,
Chuni, and other devotees who believe in the Personal God. On the other
side was a luminous space like a heap of red brick-dust. Inside it was
seated Narendra immersed in samādhi. Seeing him absorbed in meditation,
I called aloud, 'Oh, Narendra!' He opened his eyes a little. I came to
realize that he had been born, in another form, in Simla in a kayastha
family. At once I said to the Divine Mother, 'Mother, entangle him in
māyā; otherwise he will give up his body in samādhi.' Kedār, a believer
in the Personal God, peeped in and ran away with a shudder.
Master about himself
"Therefore I feel
that it is the Divine Mother Herself who dwells in this body and plays
with the devotees. When I first had my exalted state of mind, my body
would radiate light. My chest was always flushed. Then I said to the
Divine Mother: 'Mother, do not reveal Thyself outwardly. Please go
inside.' That is why my complexion is so dull now. If my body were still
luminous, people would have tormented me; a crowd would always have
thronged here. Now there is no outer manifestation. That keeps weeds
away. Only genuine devotees will remain with me now. Do you know why I
have this illness? It has the same significance. Those whose devotion to
me has a selfish motive behind it will run away at the sight of my
"I cherished a
desire. I said to the Mother, 'O Mother, I shall be the king of the
"Again, this thought
arose in my mind: 'He who sincerely prays to God will certainly come
here. He must.' You see, that is what is happening now. Only people of
that kind come.
"My parents knew who
dwells inside this body. Father had a dream at Gaya. In that dream
Raghuvir said to him, 'I shall be born as your son.'
"God alone dwells
inside this body. Such renunciation of 'woman and gold!' Could I have
accomplished that myself? I have never enjoyed a woman, even in a dream.
me in Vedānta. In three days I went into samādhi. At the sight of my
samādhi under the madhavi vine, he was quite taken aback and exclaimed,
'Ah! What is this?' Then he came to know who resides in this body. He
said to me, 'Please let me go.' At these words of Totapuri, I went into
an ecstatic mood and said, 'You cannot go till I realize the Truth of
"Day and night I
lived with him. We talked only Vedānta. The Brahmani used to say to me:
'Don't listen to Vedānta. It will injure your devotion to God.'
"I said to the
Divine Mother: 'Mother, please get me a rich man. If You don't, how
shall I be able to protect this body? How shall I be able to keep the
sādhus and devotees near me?' That is why Mathur Babu provided for my
needs for fourteen years.
"He who dwells in me
tells me beforehand what particular class of devotees will come to me.
When I have a vision of Gaurānga, I know that devotees of Gaurānga are
coming. When I have a vision of Ran, the Saktas come.
"At the time of the
evening service I used to cry out from the roof of the kuthi, weeping:
'Oh, where are you all? Come to me!' You see, they are all gathering
here, one by one.
"God Himself dwells in this body. It is He who, of His own accord, is
working with these devotees.
"What a wonderful
state of mind some of the devotees have! The younger Naren gets kumbhaka
without any effort, and samādhi too. Sometimes he stays in an ecstatic
mood for two and a half hours; sometimes even more. How wonderful!
"I have practised
all kinds of sādhanā:
Jnāna yoga, karma yoga, and bhakti yoga. I have even gone through the
exercises of hathayoga to increase longevity. There is another Person
dwelling in this body. Otherwise, after attaining samādhi, how could I
live with the devotees and enjoy the love of God? Koar Singh used to say
to me: 'I have never before seen a person who has returned from the
plane of samādhi. You are none other than Nanak.'
"I live in the midst
of worldly people; on all sides I see 'woman and gold'. Nevertheless,
this is the state of my mind: unceasing samādhi and bhava. That is the
reason Pratap said, at the sight of my ecstatic mood: 'Good heavens! It
is as if he were possessed by a ghost!' "
Rākhāl , M., and the
others were speechless as they drank in this account of Sri
Ramakrishna's unique experiences.
But did Mahimacharan
understand the import of these words? Even after hearing them, he said
to the Master, "These things have happened to you on account of your
meritorious actions in your past births." Mahima still thought that Sri
Ramakrishna was a sādhu or a devotee of God. The Master nodded assent to
Mahima's words and said: "Yes, the result of past actions. God is like
an aristocrat who has many mansions. Here [referring to himself] is one
of His drawing-rooms. The bhakta is God's drawing-room."
It was nine o'clock
in the evening. Sri Ramakrishna was sitting on the small couch. It was
Mahimacharan's desire to form a brahmachakra in the presence of the
Master. Mahima formed a circle, on the floor, with Rākhāl , M., Kishori,
and one or two other devotees. He asked them all to meditate. Rākhāl
went into an ecstatic state. The Master came down from the couch and
placed his hand on Rākhāl 's chest, repeating the name of the divine
Mother. Rākhāl regained consciousness of the outer world.
It was one o'clock
in the morning, the fourteenth day of the dark fortnight of the moon.
There was intense darkness everywhere. One or two devotees were pacing
the concrete embankment of the Ganges. Sri Ramakrishna was up. He came
out and said to the devotees, "Nangta told me that at this time, about
midnight, one hears the Anāhata sound."
In the early hours
of the morning Mahimacharan and M. lay down on the floor of the Master's
room. Rākhāl slept on a camp cot. Now and then Sri Ramakrishna
paced up and down the room with his clothes off, like a five-year-old
Monday, August 10
It was dawn. The
Master was chanting the name of the Divine Mother. He went to the porch
west of his room and looked at the Ganges; then he stopped in front of
the pictures of different gods and goddesses in the room and bowed to
them. The devotees left their beds, saluted Sri Ramakrishna, and went
The Master was talking to a devotee in the Panchavati. The latter had
dreamt of Chaitanyadeva.
MASTER (in an
ecstatic mood): "Ah me! Ah me!"
DEVOTEE: "But, sir,
it was only a dream."
MASTER: "Is a dream
a small thing?"
The Master's voice
was choked. His eyes were filled with tears.
Sri Ramakrishna was told of a devotee who had divine visions even while he
was awake. The Master said: "I am not surprised. Narendra, too, sees
forms of God nowadays."
Mahimacharan went to
one of the Śiva temples to the west of the courtyard and chanted hymns
from the Vedas. He was alone.
It was eight o'clock
in the morning. M. bathed in the Ganges and came to Sri Ramakrishna. The
brahmani who was grief-stricken on account of her daughter's death also
entered the room.
The Master asked the brahmani to give M. some prasad to eat.
eat something yourself first; then he will eat.
MASTER (to M.):
"Take some prasad of Jagannath first and then eat."
After eating the
prasad, M. went to the Śiva temples and saluted the Deity. Then he
returned to the Master's room and saluted him. He was ready to go to
"Go home safely. You have to attend to your duties."
Tuesday, August 11
Sri Ramakrishna was
in his room at the temple garden. He had been observing silence since
eight o'clock in the morning. Did he know the fatal nature of his
illness? At his silence the Holy Mother wept. Rākhāl and Lātu also
wept. The brahmani widow from Baghbazar arrived. She too was weeping at
this strange mood of the Master. Now and then the devotees asked him
whether he would remain silent for good. The Master answered them in the
negative, by a sign.
At three o'clock in
the afternoon Narayan arrived. Sri Ramakrishna said to him, "The Divine
Mother will bless you," Narayan told the other devotees that the Master
had spoken to him. A heavy weight was lifted from their breasts. They
all came into the Master's room and sat on the floor.
MASTER (to the
devotees): "The Mother showed me that all this is verily māyā. She alone
is real, and all else is the splendour of Her māyā.
"Another thing was
revealed to me. I found out how far the different devotees have
tell us about it."
MASTER: "I came to
know about all these devotees: Nityagopal, Rākhāl , Narayan? Purna,
Mahima Chakravarty, and the others."
Sunday, August 16, 1885
The news of Sri
Ramakrishna's illness had been reported to the devotees in Calcutta.
They thought it was just a sore in his throat. Many devotees arrived at
Dakshineswar to visit him. Among them were Girish, Ram, Nityagopal,
Mahima, Kishori, and Pundit Shashadhar.
Sri Ramakrishna was
in his usual happy mood. He was talking to the devotees.
MASTER: "I cannot
tell the Mother about my illness. I feel ashamed to talk of it."
GIRISH: "God will
RAM: "Yes, you will
be all right."
"Yes, give me your blessing." (All laugh.)
Girish was a recent visitor to Dakshineswar. The Master said to him: "You
have so many duties to perform. You have to face so many troubles. Come
here only three times more.
"Please tell us something about the Ādyāśakti."
SHASHADHAR: "What do
I know, sir?"
MASTER (smiling): "A
certain man had great respect for another man. The second man asked him
to bring him a little fire for his tobacco. He answered humbly, 'Sir, am
I fit to carry your fire?' He didn't bring the fire." (All laugh.)
Primal Power alone is both the instrumental and the material cause of
the universe. It is She who has created the universe and its living
beings; further, She Herself has become all these. To give an example:
the spider, as the instrumental cause, makes the web and, as the
material cause, brings the web out of its own body."
Brahman and Śakti
MASTER: "It is also
stated that He who is Purusha is also Prakriti; He who is Brahman is
also Śakti. He is called Purusha or Brahman when He is inactive, that is
to say, when He ceases to create, preserve, or destroy; and He is called
Śakti or Prakriti when He engages in those activities. But He who is
Brahman is none other than Śakti; He who is Purusha has verily become
Prakriti. Water is water whether it moves or is still. A snake is a
snake whether it wriggles along or stays still and coiled up.
"What Brahman is
cannot be described. Speech stops there. In the kirtan the singers at
first sing: 'My Nitai dances like a mata hati.' As they become more and
more ecstatic, they can hardly utter the whole sentence. They sing only:
'Hati! Hati!' As their mood deepens they sing only: 'Ha! Ha!' At last
they cannot sing even that; they become completely unconscious."
As the Master spoke
these words, he himself became transfixed in samādhi. He was standing.
consciousness of the world, he said, "That which is beyond both kshara
and akshara cannot be described."
The devotees sat in silence.
MASTER: "You cannot
go into samādhi as long as your worldly experiences are not finished, or
as long as you have duties to perform.
(To Shashadhar) "God
is now making you perform such duties as delivering lectures. You must
do these things now. You will have peace when your duties are finished.
After completing her household duties, the mistress of the family goes
for her bath. She will not come back then even if you shout after her."
Thursday, August 27, 1885
Sri Ramakrishna was
sitting in his room at Dakshineswar. It was five o'clock in the
afternoon. There were two or three devotees with him. While with the
devotees he never gave a thought to his physical illness, often spending
the whole day with them talking and singing.
Doctor Madhu was
treating Sri Ramakrishna. He frequently visited the Master at
Dakshineswar, coming by country boat from Calcutta. The devotees were
very much worried about the Master; it was their secret desire that the
physician should see him daily. M. said to the Master, "Doctor Madhu is
an experienced physician. It will be nice if he sees you every day."
Pundit Shyamapada of Antpur arrived. It was dusk. The pundit went to the
bank of the Ganges to perform his evening worship; he had some amazing
visions during the worship. He returned to the Master's room and sat on
the floor. Sri. Ramakrishna had just finished meditation and the
chanting of the holy names. He was sitting on the small couch and M. on
the foot-rug. Rākhāl , Lātu, and the others were in and out of the room.
Brahman is the innermost Reality
MASTER (to M,
pointing to the pundit): "He is very nice. (To the pundit) Where
the mind attains peace by practising the discipline of 'Neti, neti',
there Brahman is.
"The king dwells in
the inmost room of the palace, which has seven gates. The visitor comes
to the first gate. There he sees a lordly person with a large retinue,
surrounded on all sides by pomp and grandeur. The visitor asks his
companion, 'Is he the king?' 'No', says his friend with a smile.
"At the second and
the other gates he repeats the same question to his friend. He finds
that the nearer he comes to the inmost part of the palace, the greater
is the glory, pomp, and grandeur. When he passes the seventh gate he
does not ask his companion whether it is the king; he stands speechless
at the king's immeasurable glory. He realizes that he is face to face
with the king. He hasn't the slightest doubt about it."
PUNDIT: "One sees
God beyond the realm of māyā."
Futility of mere scholarship
MASTER: "But after
realizing God one finds that He alone has become māyā, the universe, and
all living beings. This world is no doubt a 'framework of illusion',
unreal as a dream. One feels that way when one discriminates following
the process of 'Not this, not this'. But after the vision of God this
very world becomes 'a mansion of mirth'.
"What will you gain
by the mere study of scriptures? The pundits merely indulge in
PUNDIT: "I hate the
idea of being called a pundit."
MASTER: "That is due
to the grace of God. The pundits merely indulge in reasoning. Some have
heard of milk and some have drunk milk. After you have the vision of God
you will find that everything is Narayana. It is Narayana Himself
who has become everything."
The pundit recited a
hymn to Narayana . Sri Ramakrishna was overwhelmed with joy.
PUNDIT (quoting from
the Gitā.): "'with the heart concentrated by yoga, with the eye of
evenness for all things, he beholds the Self in all beings and all
beings in the Self.' "
MASTER: "Have you
read the Adhyātma Rāmāyana?"
PUNDIT: "Yes, sir, a
MASTER: "The book is
filled with ideas of knowledge and devotion. The life of Savari and the
hymn by Ahalyā are filled with bhakti.
'But you must
remember one thing: God is very far away from the mind tainted with
PUNDIT: "Yes, sir.
God is far, far away from worldly intelligence. And God is very near,
where that does not exist. I visited a certain Zamindār, one Mukherji of
Uttarpara. He is now an elderly man; but he listens only to stories and
MASTER: "It is
further said in the Adhyātma Rāmāyana that God alone has become the
universe and its living beings."
The pundit was delighted. He recited a hymn to that effect from the tenth
chapter of the Bhagavata:
O Krishna! Krishna! Mighty Yogi! Thou art the Primal Supreme
This universe, manifest and unmanifest, is Thy form, as the sages declare.
Thou alone art the soul, the sense-organs, the Lord dwelling in the bodies
Thou art the subtle Great Prakriti, made of sattva, rajas, and tamas;
Thou alone art the Purusha, the Lord dwelling in the bodies of all.
As Sri Ramakrishna
listened to the hymn he went into samādhi. He remained standing. The
pundit was seated. The Master placed his foot on the pundit's lap and
chest, and smiled.
The pundit clung to
his feet and said, "O Guru! Please give me God Consciousness."
After the pundit had
left the room Sri Ramakrishna said to M.: "Don't you see that what I
have said is coming to pass? Those who have sincerely practised
meditation and japa must come here."
It was ten o'clock.
Sri Ramakrishna ate a little farina pudding and lay down. He asked M. to
stroke his feet. A few minutes later he asked the disciple to massage
his body and chest gently. He enjoyed a short nap. Then he said to M.:
"Now go to sleep. Let me see if I can sleep better when I am alone." He
said to Ramlal, "He [meaning M.] and Rākhāl may sleep in the
Friday, August 28
It was dawn. Sri
Ramakrishna was awake and meditating on the Divine Mother. On account of
his illness the devotees were deprived of his sweet chanting of the
Divine Incarnations act like men
Sri Ramakrishna was
seated on the small couch. He asked M., "Well, why have I this illness?"
M: "People will not
have the courage to approach you unless you resemble them in all
respects. But they are amazed to find that in spite of such illness you
don't know anything but God."
"Balarām also said, 'If even you can be ill, then why should we wonder
about our illnesses?' Lakshmana was amazed to see that Rāma could not
lift His bow on account of His grief for Sita. 'Even Brahman weeps,
entangled in the snare of the five elements.'"
M: "Jesus Christ,
too, wept like an ordinary man at the suffering of His devotees."
MASTER: "How was
Jesus and Lazarus
M: 'There were two
sisters, Mary and Martha. Lazarus was their brother. All three were
devoted to Jesus. Lazarus died. Jesus was on His way to their house. One
of the sisters, Mary, ran out to meet Him. She fell at His feet and said
weeping, 'Lord, if You had been here, my brother would not have died!'
Jesus wept to see her cry.
"Then Jesus went to
the tomb of Lazarus and called him by name. Immediately Lazarus came
back to life and walked out of the tomb."
MASTER: "But I
cannot do those things."
M: "That is because
you don't want to. These are miracles; therefore you aren't interested
in them. These things draw people's attention to their bodies. Then they
do not think of genuine devotion. That is why you don't perform
Similarities between Christ and Sri
But there are many
similarities between you and Jesus Christ."
M: "You don't ask
your devotees to fast or practise other austerities. You don't prescribe
hard and fast rules about food. Christ's disciples did not observe the
sabbath; so the Pharisees took them to task. Thereupon Jesus said: 'They
have done well to eat. As long as they are with the bridegroom they must
MASTER: "What does
M: "Christ meant
that as long as the disciples live with the Incarnation of God, they
should only make merry. Why should they be sorrowful? But when He
returns to His own abode in heaven, then will come the days of their
sorrow and suffering."
"Do you find anything else in me that is similar to Christ?"
M: "Yes, sir. You
say: 'The youngsters are not yet touched by: "woman and gold";
they will be able to assimilate instruction. It is like keeping milk in
a new pot: the milk may turn sour if it is kept in a pot in which curd
has been made.' Christ also spoke like that."
MASTER: "What did He
M: "'If new wine is
kept in an old bottle, the bottle may crack. If an old cloth is patched
with new cloth, the old cloth tears away.'
"Further, you tell us that you and the Mother are one. Likewise, Christ
said, 'I and My Father are one.' "
M: "You say to us,
'God will surely listen to you if you call on Him earnestly.' So also
Christ said, 'Knock and it shall be opened unto you.'
MASTER: "Well, if
God has incarnated Himself again, is it a fractional or a partial or a
complete manifestation of God? Some say it is a complete manifestation."
M: "Sir, I don't
quite understand the meaning of complete or partial or fractional
Incarnation. But I have understood, as 'you explained it, the idea of a
round hole in a wall."
MASTER: "Tell me
M: "There is a round
hole in the wall. Through it one is able to see part of the meadow on
the other side of the wall. Likewise, through you one sees part of the
MASTER: "True. You
can see five or six miles of the meadow at a stretch."
M. finished his bath
in the Ganges and went to the Master's room. It was eight o'clock in the
morning. He asked Lātu to give him the rice prasad of Jagannath. The
Master stood near him and said: "Take this prasad regularly. Those who
are devotees of God do not eat anything before taking the prasad."
M: "Yesterday I got
some prasad of Jagannath from Balarām Babu's house. I take one or
two grains daily."
M. saluted the
Master and took his leave. Sri Ramakrishna said to him tenderly: "Come
early in the morning tomorrow. The hot sun of the rainy season is bad
for the health."
Monday, August 31, 1885
Sri Ramakrishna was
resting in his room. It was about eight o'clock in the evening. Though
ill and suffering, he constantly devoted himself to the welfare of the
devotees. Sometimes he felt restless, like a child; but the next moment
he forgot all about his illness and became filled with ecstatic love of
God. His love for the devotees was like that of a mother for her
Two days earlier, on
Saturday night, he had received a letter from Purna. Purna had written:
"I am feeling extremely happy. Now and then I cannot sleep at night for
joy." After hearing the letter the Master had remarked: "I feel thrilled
to hear this. Even later on, he will be able to keep this bliss. Let me
see the letter." He had pressed the letter in the palm of his hand and
said: "Generally I cannot touch letters. But this is a good letter."
That same night, while the Master was in bed, he had suddenly become
covered with perspiration. He had sat up in bed, saying, "It seems to me
that I shall not recover from this illness." It had worried the devotees
very much to hear this. The Holy Mother had come to the Temple Garden to
wait on Sri Ramakrishna and was living in a room in the Nahabat. The
devotees, with the exception of one or two, were not aware of her
presence. A woman devotee staying with the Holy Mother had begun to pay
frequent visits to Sri Ramakrishna in his room. After a few days Sri
Ramakrishna had said to her: "You have been here some time. What will
people think about it? You had better go home for a week or so."
Sri Ramakrishna lay
in bed, on his side, with his back to the room. After dusk Gangadhar and
M. arrived from Calcutta. Gangadhar sat at the feet of the Master, who
was talking to M.
MASTER: "Two boys
came here the other day. One of them was Subodh. He is Sankar Ghosh's
great grandson. The other, Kshirode, is his neighbour. They are nice
boys. I told them I was ill and asked them to go to you for instruction.
Please look after them a little."
M: "Yes, sir. They
are our neighbours."
MASTER: "The other
day, again, I woke up covered with perspiration. I don't understand this
M: "We have decided
to ask Bhagavan Rudra to see you once. He is an M.D. and an expert
MASTER: "How much
will he charge?"
M: "His regular fee
is twenty or twenty-five rupees."
MASTER: "Then don't
bother about him."
M: "But we shall pay
him four or five rupees at the most."
Suppose you say this to him, 'Sir, please be kind enough to come and see
him.' Hasn't he heard anything about this place?"
M: "Perhaps he has.
He has almost agreed not to charge any fee. But we shall pay him a
little. If we do that, he will come again."
MASTER: "Ask Dr.
Nitai to come. He is a good physician. But what will the doctors do, I
wonder? They press my throat and make my illness worse."
It was nine o'clock
in the evening. Sri Ramakrishna ate a little farina pudding and had no
difficulty in swallowing it. He said to M. cheerfully:"I was able
to eat a little. I feel very happy."
Tuesday, September 1
Sri Ramakrishna was
about to take his bath. A devotee was rubbing his Body with oil on the
verandah south of his room. M. came there after finishing his bath in
the Ganges and saluted the Master.
After bathing, Sri
Ramakrishna wrapped himself in a towel and with folded hands saluted the
deities in the temples from afar. He could not go to the temples because
of his illness.
It was the sacred Janmasthami day, the birthday of Krishna. Ram and other
devotees had brought new clothes for Sri Ramakrishna. He put them on and
looked charming. Again he saluted the deities.
Gopal Ma brought her
Gopala some food that she had prepared at her home at Kamarhati. She
said to the Master sorrowfully, "But you won't eat any of it."
MASTER: "You see, I
GOPAL MA "That is my
bad luck. Please take a little in your hand."
MASTER: "Please give
me your blessing."
A devotee brought
some sugar candy. Gopal Ma said, "Let me take it to the Holy Mother in
the nahabat." The Master said: "No, keep it here. I give sweets to the
devotees. Who wants to send a messenger a hundred times to the nahabat
for sugar candy? Let it be kept here."
It was eleven
o'clock in the morning. The devotees were gradually arriving from
Calcutta. Balarām, Narendra, the younger Naren, NavaGopal, and a
Vaishnava from katoa arrived. Rākhāl and Lātu were staying
with Sri Ramakrishna. A Punjabi sādhu had been staying in the Panchavati
for some days.
The younger Naren
had a tumour on his forehead. Sri Ramakrishna was strolling in the
Panchavati with the devotees. He said to the younger Naren: "Why don't
you have your tumour operated on? It is not in the throat but only on
the forehead. That is a simple thing. People have their orchitis
The Punjabi sādhu
was going along the footpath in the garden. The Master said: "I don't
attract him. He has the attitude of a Jnāni. I find him to be dry as
Sri Ramakrishna and
the devotees returned to the Master's room. The conversation turned to
said, 'When he, the Master, placed his foot on Narendra's chest,
Narendra went into bhava; but I didn't have that experience' ".
MASTER: "Shall I
tell you the truth about it? It is very difficult to gather the
dispersed mind when it is attached to 'woman and gold'. The pundit told
me he was called upon to act as arbiter to settle people's quarrels.
Besides, he has to worry about his children. But the minds of Narendra
and other youngsters are not scattered like that; they are not yet
touched by 'woman and gold'.
"But Shyamapada is a
The Vaishnava from
Katoa began to ask Sri Ramakrishna questions. He was squint-eyed.
VAISHNAVA: "Sir, is
a man born again?"
MASTER: "It is said
in the Gitā that a man is reborn with those tendencies that are in his
mind at the time of his death. King Bharata thought of his deer at the
time of death and was reborn as a deer."
VAISHNAVA: "I could
believe in rebirth only if an eye-witness told me about it."
MASTER: "I don't
know about that, my dear sir. I cannot cure my own illness, and you ask
me to tell you what happens after death!
"What you are
talking about only shows your petty mind. Try to cultivate love of God.
You are born as a human being only to attain divine love. You have come
to the orchard to eat mangoes; what need is there of knowing how many
thousands of branches and millions of leaves there are in the orchard?
To bother about what happens after death! How silly!"
Girish and Master
Girish Ghosh arrived
in a carriage with one or two friends. He was drunk. He was weeping as
he entered the room. He wept, as he placed his head on Sri Ramakrishna's
Sri Ramakrishna affectionately patted him on the back. He said to a
devotee, "Prepare a smoke for him."
Girish raised his
head and said with folded hands: "You alone are the Perfect Brahman! If
that is not so then everything is false.
"It is such a pity that I could not be of any service to you," He uttered
these words with a tenderness that made several devotees weep.
Girish continued: "O
Lord! Please grant me the boon that I may serve you for a year. Who
cares for salvation? One finds it everywhere. I spit on it. Please tell
me that you will accept my service for one year."
around here are not good. Some may criticize you."
GIRISH: "I don't
care. Please tell-"
MASTER: "All right.
You may serve me when I go to your house."
GIRISH: "No, it is
not that. I want to serve you here."
insistent. The Master said, "Well, that depends on God's will."
Referring to the
Master's throat trouble, Girish said: "Please say, 'Let it be cured.'
All right, I shall thrash it out. Kāli! Kāli!"
MASTER: "You will
GIRISH: "O throat,
be cured! (He blows at the throat like an exorciser.) Are you not all
right? If you aren't cured by this time, you certainly will be if I have
any devotion to your feet. Say that you are cured."
"Leave me alone. I can't say those things. I can't ask the Divine Mother
to cure my illness. "All right. I shall be cured if it is the will of
GIRISH: "You are
trying to fool me. All depends on your will."
Never say that again. I look on myself as a devotee of Krishna, not as
Krishna Himself. You may think as you like. You may look on your guru as
God. Nevertheless, it is wrong to talk as you are talking. You must not
talk that way again."
GIRISH: "Please say
you will be cured."
MASTER: "Very well,
if that pleases you."
Girish was still
under the influence of drink. Now and then he said to Sri Ramakrishna,
"Well, sir, how is it that you were not born this time with your
A few moments later
he said, "I see, this time it will be the salvation of Bengal."
A devotee said to
himself: "Why Bengal alone? It will be the salvation of the whole
addressing the devotees: "Does any of you understand why he is here? It
is for the liberation of men. Their suffering has moved him to assume a
The coachman was
calling Girish. He got up and was going toward the man. The Master said
to M.: "Watch him. Where is he going? I hope he won't beat the
coachman!" M. accompanied Girish.
returned. He prayed to Sri Ramakrishna and said, "O God, give me purity
that I may not have even a trace of sinful thought."
MASTER: "You are
already pure. You have such faith and devotion! You are in a state of
joy, aren't you?"
GIRISH: "No, sir. I
feel bad. I have worries. That is why I have drunk so much liquor."
A few minutes
afterwards Girish said: "Lord, I am amazed to find that I, even I, have
been given the privilege of serving the Perfect Brahman. What
austerities have I practised to deserve this privilege?"
Sri Ramakrishna took
his midday meal. On account of his illness he ate very little.
The Master's natural
tendency of mind was to soar into the plane of God-Consciousness. He
would force his mind to be conscious of the body. But, like a child, he
was incapable of looking after his body. Like a child he said to the
devotees: "I have eaten a little. I shall rest now. You may go out for a
little while." Sri Ramakrishna rested a few minutes. The devotees
returned to the room.
GIRISH: "The guru
and the Ishta. I like very much the form of the guru. I am not afraid of
him. Why should it be so? I am afraid of ecstasy. At the sight of
ecstasy I run away."
The guru and the Chosen Ideal
MASTER: "He who is
the Ishta appears in the form of the guru. The aspirant practises
meditation on a corpse. When he obtains the vision of his Chosen Ideal,
it is really the guru who appears to him and says, 'This is that', that
is to say, he points out to the disciple his Ishta. Uttering these
words, the guru disappears into the form of the Ishta. The disciple no
longer sees the guru. In the state of perfect Jnāna , who is the guru
and who is the sishya? That creates a very difficult situation; there
the teacher and the disciple do not see each other.' "
A DEVOTEE: "Guru's
head and disciple's feet."
"Yes! Yes! It is true."
listen to its meaning. The disciple's head belongs to the guru; and the
guru's feet belong to the disciple. Do you understand?"
GIRISH: "No, that is
not the meaning. Haven't you seen the child climbing on the head of the
father? That is why the disciple's feet are mentioned."
NAVAGOPAL: "But then
the disciple must feel like a young baby."
Two classes of devotees kitten
and young monkey
MASTER: "There are
two classes of devotees. One class has the nature of the kitten. The
kitten depends completely on its mother. It accepts whatever its mother
does for it. The kitten only cries, 'Mew, mew!' It doesn't know what to
do or where to go. Sometimes the mother puts the kitten near the heart,
sometimes on the bed. Devotees of this class give God the power of
attorney and thus become free of all worry. The Sikhs said to me that
God was kind. I said to them: 'How is that? He is our Father and our
Mother. Shouldn't parents bring up their children after begetting
them?Do you mean to say that the neighbours will look after them?'
Devotees of this class have an unwavering conviction that God is our
Mother and our Father.
"There is another
class of devotees. They have the nature of the young monkey. The young
monkey clings to its mother with might and main. The devotees who behave
like the young monkey have a slight idea of being the doer. They feel:
'we must go to the sacred places; we must practise japa and austerity;
we must perform worship with sixteen articles as prescribed by the
sastras. Only then shall we be able to realize God.' Such is their
"The aspirants of
both classes are devotees of God. The farther you advance, the more you
will realize that God alone has become everything. He alone does
everything. He alone is the Guru and He alone is the Ishta. He alone
gives us knowledge and devotion.
"The farther you
advance, the more you will see that there are other things even beyond
the sandal-wood forest-mines of silver and gold and precious gems.
Therefore go forward.
Worldly man's obstacles
"But how can I ask
people to go forward? If worldly people go too far, then the bottom will
drop out of their world. One day Keshab was conducting a religious
service. He said, 'O God, may we all sink and disappear in the river of
bhakti!' When the warship was over I said to him: 'Look here. How can
you disappear altogether in the river of bhakti? If you do, what will
happen to those seated behind the screen? But do one thing: sink now and
then, and come back again to dry land."(All laugh.)
Futility of argument
The Vaishnava from
Katoa was arguing.
MASTER (to the
Vaishnava): "Stop that sizzling noise! When butter containing water is
heated over a fire, it makes that sound.
"If a man but once
tastes the joy of God, his desire to argue takes wing. The bee,
realizing the joy of sipping honey, doesn't buzz about any more. What
will you achieve by quoting from books? The pundits recite verses and do
"What will you gain
by merely repeating 'siddhi'? You will not be intoxicated even by
gargling with a solution of siddhi. It must go into your stomach; not
until then will you be intoxicated. One cannot comprehend what I am
saying unless one prays to God in solitude, all by oneself, with a
arrived to examine Sri Ramakrishna. The Master said to him eagerly,
"Come in and sit down."
with the Vaishnava continued.
MASTER: "Man should
possess dignity and alertness. Only he whose spiritual consciousness is
awakened possesses this dignity and alertness and can be called a man.
Futile is the human birth without the awakening of spiritual
"There are many men
at Kamarpukur with big bellies and imposing moustaches. Yet the
villagers go with palanquins and bring righteous and truthful persons
from twenty miles away to arbitrate their quarrels. They do not bring
"Truthfulness is the
of the Kaliyuga. 'Truthfulness, submission to God, and looking on the
wives of other men as one's own mother'-these are the means to realize
Like a child Sri Ramakrishna said to the physician, "Sir, please cure my
DOCTOR: "Do you ask
me to cure you?"
physician is Narayana Himself. I honour everybody. You may say
that if I look on all as Narayana then I should keep quiet. But I
also accept the words of the 'Mahut Narayana'.
"The Pure Mind and
the Pure Ātman are one and the same thing. Whatever comes up in the Pure
Mind is the voice of God. God alone is the 'mahut Narayana.'
"Why should I not
listen to God? He alone is the Master. As long as He keeps
'I-consciousness' in me, I shall obey His orders."
The doctor was going
to examine Sri Ramakrishna's throat. The Master said, "Dr.
Mahendra Sarkar pressed my tongue the way they press a cow's."
Like a child Sri
Ramakrishna said to the physician, pulling at his shirt-sleeves again
and again, "Sir! My dear sir! Please cure my throat." Looking at the
laryngoscope, he said with a smile: "I know it. You will see the
reflection in it."
Narendra sang. But
on account of the Master's illness there was not much music.
After finishing his
midday meal Sri Ramakrishna sat on the small couch and talked to Dr.
Bhagavan Rudra and M. Rākhāl , Lātu, and other devotees were in the
room. The physician heard all about the Master's illness. Sri
Ramakrishna came down to the floor and sat near the doctor.
MASTER: "You see,
medicine does not agree with me. My system is different.
"Well, what do you
think of this? When I touch a coin my hand gets twisted; my breathing
stops. Further, if tie a knot in the comer of my cloth, I cannot
breathe. My breathing stops until the knot is untied."
The Master asked a
devotee to bring a rupee. When Sri Ramakrishna held it in his hand, the
hand began to writhe with pain. The Master's breathing also stopped.
After the coin had been taken away, he breathed deeply three times and
his hand relaxed. The doctor became speechless with wonder to see this
The doctor said to
M., "Action on the nerves."
MASTER (to the
doctor): "I get into another state of mind. It is impossible for me to
lay up anything. One day I visited Sambhu Mallick's garden house. At
that time I had been suffering badly from stomach trouble. Sambhu said
to me: Take a grain of opium now and then. It will help you.' He tied a
little opium in a corner of my cloth. As I was returning to the Kāli
temple, I began to Vander about near the gate as if unable to find the
way. Then I threw the opium away and at once regained my normal
state. I returned to the temple garden.
"One day at
Kamarpukur I picked some mangoes. I was carrying them home. But I could
not walk; I had to stay standing in one place. Then I left the mangoes
in a hollow. Only after that could I return home. Well, how do you
DOCTOR: "There is a
force behind it. Will-force."
M: "He [meaning the
Master] says that it is God-force. You say that it is will-force."
MASTER (to the
doctor): "Again, I get into such a state of mind that if someone says I
am better, I at once feel much better. The other day the brahmani said:
'You are fifty per cent better.' At once I began to dance."
Sri Ramakrishna was
much pleased with the physician. He said to him:"You have a very fine
nature. There are two characteristics of knowledge: a peaceful nature
and absence of pride."
M:. "The doctor has
lost his wife."
MASTER (to the
doctor): "I say that God can be realized if one feels drawn to Him by
the intensity of these three attractions: the child's attraction for the
mother, the husband's attraction for the chaste wife, and the attraction
of worldly possessions for the worldly man. "Please cure me of my
The doctor was going
to examine the Master's throat Sri Ramakrishna was seated in a
chair on the semicircular porch.
eferring to Dr.
Sarkar, the Master said: "He is a villain. He pressed my tongue as if I
were a cow."
DOCTOR: "He didn't
hurt you purposely."
MASTER: "No, he
pressed the tongue to make a thorough examination."
Sunday, September 20, 1885
Sri Ramakrishna was
sitting in his room, surrounded by devotees. Nava-Gopal, Haralal, Rākhāl
, Lātu, and others were present. A goswami who was a musician was also
M. arrived with Dr.
Rākhāl of Bowbazar. The physician began to examine the Master. He
was a stout person and had rather thick fingers.
MASTER (smiling, to
the physician): "Your fingers are like a wrestler's. Mahendra Sarkar
also examined me. He pressed my tongue so hard that it hurt me. He
pressed my tongue the way they press a cow's."
DOCTOR: "I shall not
hurt you, sir."
The physician made
out his prescription. Sri Ramakrishna was talking.
MASTER (to the
devotees): "Well, people ask why, if I am such a holy person, I should
TĀRAK: "Bbagavan Das
Babaji, too, was ill and bed-ridden a long time."
MASTER: "But look at
Dr. Madhu. At the age of sixty he carries food to the house of his
mistress; and he has no illness."
GOSWAMI: "Sir, your
illness is for the sake of others. You take upon yourself the sins of
those who come to you. You fall ill because you accept their sins."
A DEVOTEE: "You will
soon be cured if only you say to the Divine Mother, 'Mother, please make
me well.' "
Master could not ask God to cure him
MASTER: "I cannot
ask God to cure my disease. The attitude of the servant-master
relationship is nowadays less strong in me.
Once in a while, I
say, 'O Mother, please mend the sheath of the sword a little.' But such
prayers are also becoming less frequent. Nowadays I do not find my 'I';
I see that it is God alone who resides in this sheath."
The goswami had been
invited to sing kirtan. A devotee asked, "Will there be any kirtan?" Sri
Ramakrishna was ill, and all were afraid that the kirtan might throw his
mind into ecstasy and thus aggravate the illness.
said: "Let there be a little singing. All are afraid of my going into
ecstasy. Spiritual emotion hurts the throat."
The goswami began
the kirtan. Sri Ramakrishna could not control himself.
He stood up and
began to dance with the devotees. The physician watched the whole scene.
A hired carriage was
waiting for Dr. Rākhāl . He and M. were ready to leave for Calcutta.
They saluted the Master. Sri Ramakrishna said to M. affectionately,
"Have you had your meal?"
Thursday, September 24, 1885
It was the night of
the full moon. Sri Ramakrishna was sitting on the small couch. He was
very ill. M. and some other devotees were sitting on the floor.
MASTER (to M.):
"Every now and then I think that the body is a mere pillow-case. The
only real substance is the Indivisible Satchidananda.
"When I go into
divine ecstasy this illness of the throat remains away from me. I am now
somewhat in that mood and so I feel like laughing."
Some ladies of
Dwija's family arrived. They saluted the Master and sat on one side.
Pointing to one of the ladies, Sri Ramakrishna asked: "Who is this lady?
Is it she who brought up Dwija? Why has Dwija bought an ektara?"
M: "It has two
father is opposed to his views. Won't other people criticize him? It is
wise for him to pray to God secretly."
A picture of Gaurānga and Nitai hung on the wall of the Master's room. It
was a picture of the two brothers singing devotional songs with their
companions at Navadvip.
RAMLAL (to the
Master): "Then may I give him [meaning M.] the picture?"
Sri Ramakrishna was
then under Dr. Pratap's treatment. He awoke at midnight and felt
extremely restless. Harish, his attendant was in the room. Rākhāl
also was there. Ramlal was asleep on the verandah. The Master remarked
later on: "I was feeling extremely restless. I felt like embracing
Harish. They rubbed a little medicinal oil on my head. Then I began to